Afterwards

 when i think of my show, sense those images up there, i sink into an indescribable state.Nothing to do with success or failure , or any show label . yes a friend used the word weird , and yes depressed , but its unclear , except i know now, shows are not the route for me. .

 well ,there is always Mrs brown ,

this morning she was bustling by the gate , and pleased with her porridge and organic  - of course - layers mash . I stood watching as the plump blackbird arrived to join her . Mrs brown goes 1st , the blackbird waits , as she makes her special food enjoyment noise , and then she allows her tiny flock to share .